Day One: It’s Not You, It’s Me

Dear Writer’s Block,

I understand that this isn’t the easiest to hear but it needs to be said: I can’t keep you around anymore. This whole experience has been too long and difficult for me so I need to let you go.

It’s been quite a ride, hasn’t it? And a long one, at that. But I’m looking for something and even though I’m not sure what it is, I know I won’t find it within you. Another year has started and it’s about time that I do or at least get a little closer to it. So, I’m starting this boot camp in order to forget about you. I know it won’t be easy and it’s going to take some work and practice but it’s going to be worth more than all this time I’ve been spending with you.

I want to know of the thrill of my fingers gliding over the keyboard with ease again. I want to be proud of the ink drying on the notebook I’ve left open to make more tea. I want my feel my heart flutter and eyes tear when I read the words over again and again and again. And I want to be able to write about that and experience what I’m writing, even if it never really happened.

I know this isn’t easy but I’m sure you’ll find someone else to hang around, someone who might be willing to let you stay a little longer. It just isn’t me and it never could have been.

All the best,

Ruzelle

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